Weird Holiday Season

I think the whole Christmas season this year is strange for me.  The weather has been unusually warm, so I was only able to turn off my air conditioner on Thanksgiving.  We finally got a cold day today where I have to actually wear pants and not shorts. 

Christmas shopping is very limited due to the fact that I have not had a job in the past year.  Luckily, I live within my means, so there is a little money to spend on Christmas, so the kids are at least getting gifts.  They are getting mostly clothes though, so nothing too exciting. 

My ex is taking the kids out of town after Christmas and asked if he can have them before Christmas day so that they can travel.  The kids no longer believe in Santa, so that is not an issue, but it just feels weird.  We will be opening gifts a full week early since they are getting some clothes that they would like to take on their trip and this will give me time to get them washed, etc...

Of course, I have been informed that my unemployment will be us at the end of the year, so I have been searching high and low for a job.  I have to say that there is not much out there in the way of decent jobs.  So, everything seems up in the air right now because if I get a job, I don't know what it will be or what to expect.  If I don't get a job, my unemployment will be gone and we will have to definitely change how we live (thinking beans and rice). 

So, the holiday season just does not feel all that festive this year.  I am trying to cheer myself up and keep my spirits up, but that is easier said than done.  I will say that I am thankful for my wonderful family and that my life overall is pretty great.  Now if I could only find a job.....